Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Writing Therapy

There is no need to stress over what is. Focus on the blessing in the lesson:.:.:.:.♡!*:.:.:.:.♡!*:.:.:.:.♡!*:.:.:.:.♡!*

Mood:It don't seem easy soul searching....
Song:Tears of Blood x K-Hyph(rIP)

Today was really a rough day for me . . . At least the weather was to my liking. I don't understand why God hasn't answered my prayer yet every night & morning I'm asking for

  • Financial Stability.
  • A place to call my own.
  • Get my own car.
  • Never have to ask people that let me down or disrespected me for HELP ever again.
I know some people are grateful they have a mom and the ones who lost their moms wish to bring her back. I try to love & respect mines but it's hard when she's 
  • Disrespecting Me.
  • Always asking for $$$ .
  • Hitting below the belt.
  • Saying no man will ever want me
And when I do defend myself against verbal abuse I'm the disrespectful/hated one. It's hard to deal with that every other day and trying to respect someone like that. I just want to be gone before my own child thinks it's okay to talk to me like that. 
I hope all the adversities I am going through will benefit me in the end.

I wish a blessing would fall out the sky the town that I am in is driving me crazy. I feel like I'm going to be stuck here forever & that's a nightmare within itself. I wish I could be happy for a day or two I want to be the best I can be for myself & my son. I wish I had someone to lean on during times like this. 

I'm thankful that my son & I have a roof over our head and Yes...I know it can get worse I want it to get better before it can get to that point. Last year was tough I hope this year does not repeat itself. I know I have my son as long as he's okay I'm okay I just wish I could offer us a better life so he don't have to see me sad like this. 

***If Ruby Slippers could make your dreams come true I would buy me more than one pair***

ETA:KEVIN NEVER TEXTED BACK OR CALLED. IT DOESN'T TAKE A ROCKET SCIENTIST TO SEE HE'S NOT INTERESTED. I WISH HIM THE BEST THOUGH HIM FLIRTING WITH ME SURE DID BRIGHTEN MY DAY.

anyways goodnight it's so good to get this off my chest I hope my day is happier thank-you for tuning in pray for me